Well, this weekend I've really tried to stay busy with house stuff. On Friday I hung the curtains in the baby's room. The room is painted cream. The curtains are chocolate brown and I put white sheers behind them. The white sounds a little weird but the trim in the room is white, so I wanted it to match.
Today I did all of the baby's laundry! 5 loads! All sheets and clothes that I have are washed. My shower is in less than two weeks, so I'm sure I could have more to wash from there. I folded all of the clothes and put them in the fabric bins we had bought. The furniture isn't up and ready, but I've got my bins ready!
This week should include putting the trim back up in the nursery, and hopefully having Mr. Later Than Most put the furniture together. We have his family coming up soon, and I'm really hoping for it all to be ready by then. Don't worry, when it's finished, I WILL post pictures.
Other than that, my only new thing is heartburn! I have NEVER had heartburn before and it just started. No wonder people complain about it. . . it really sucks! Although, it's just a small price to pay. I'll take the heartburn!
January 30, 2011
January 27, 2011
For My Readers :)
Mr. Later Than Most and I have always agreed that our baby names would be a secret. We've had a boys name picked for more than two years. Yup, we knew the name we liked when we started to TTC and years later, we may get to use it! Girls names have been so, so hard. We have liked NONE! I mean, we've each liked some but we couldn't agree. Also, I think teaching kinda ruins kids's names! LOL
Well, today I figured that my blog readers know more about me than my own family (truly, because they don't know about the infertility), so I figured I'd share our potential names. Now the middle names could change as they are not in stone.
So. . . our girl name is Brooklyn. On the table is Brooklyn Reece.
Our boy name is Colton. Middle name still in the works, but we like Colton Jax. The Jax is for sure not confirmed!
So my loyal followers (that sounds bad), there is your treat! Mr. Later Than Most and I were out to breakfast this weekend and joking about Brooklyn's name. We said we should totally make her middle name another town so it would sound really weird! We joked about Brooklyn Milwaukee and Brooklyn Pittsburgh. Hahahah, yes, we are nuts!
Well, today I figured that my blog readers know more about me than my own family (truly, because they don't know about the infertility), so I figured I'd share our potential names. Now the middle names could change as they are not in stone.
So. . . our girl name is Brooklyn. On the table is Brooklyn Reece.
Our boy name is Colton. Middle name still in the works, but we like Colton Jax. The Jax is for sure not confirmed!
So my loyal followers (that sounds bad), there is your treat! Mr. Later Than Most and I were out to breakfast this weekend and joking about Brooklyn's name. We said we should totally make her middle name another town so it would sound really weird! We joked about Brooklyn Milwaukee and Brooklyn Pittsburgh. Hahahah, yes, we are nuts!
January 24, 2011
OMG- 30 Weeks!!!
Thirty weeks, thirty weeks! What happened? Weeks 20-30 fly by in case anyone is wondering!
Well, I went to the doctor the other day and everything is great. My blood pressure was a little high, 132/78. Mine is normally about 100-108 over seventy something. The doctor didn't think it was a concern as it still fell in the normal range. You know me though, I kinda freaked out. So, tomorrow I will have the nurse at school check it to see if it's high again. If not, I'll try to take it easy until my next appointments.
My nine pound weight gain is now up to 11. I've had two shakes for dinner the past week. That is so not me, but once I get some sort of food in my head, I kinda have to go that route. Don't get me wrong, I ate regular food that day too, but the shake was so good!
The nursery is pretty much coming along! Mr. Later Than Most painted it this weekend. I love the cream color he picked out. Yes, I let him pick it. I'm very art deficient. You know how people look at colors and they are like, "That has a hint of orange." I sit there and wonder what in the hell they are talking about. Orange? Yellow is yellow, how does it have orange? I'm sure this is the reason that my art skills are lower than a third grade level. That's okay, you can't be good at everything.
Yes, I'm still shopping. I'm the worst at buying stuff off my own registry! LOL I mean, if I really want something, I need to be the one to buy it. There are not many big things on our registry (I have to remember to say "our" and not "mine." I also refer to the "wedding" as mine and Mr. Later Than Most does not like that!). The hubs is going skiing in Colorado this week, so the nursery is on hold. I will be washing baby clothes though and getting things ready outside of the nursery. That should keep me from shopping online!
As for the baby, he/she just moves and moves. My WHOLE STOMACH was moving today. I was laughing because it looked weird and really, really tickles. This baby is currently a night sleeper, which I'm enjoying. He/she sleeps most of the night and is awake all day. The past two nights I've been awakened by kicks though. These were at 3:30am both nights. Also, I get a lot of Braxton Hicks. I've had this for about 10 weeks. Nothing to be concerned about, but man are they annoying.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about my IVF journey. The bitterness is almost all gone now and people can tell me they are pregnant and I don't freak out. Ugh, I hate those feelings. Now that I'm thirty weeks, I worry a lot less. Can you believe it took this long? That is not a way to enjoy your pregnancy. This morning I realized that this blog will soon be about a baby. A baby that was once in a little petri dish. So, so weird!
Well, I went to the doctor the other day and everything is great. My blood pressure was a little high, 132/78. Mine is normally about 100-108 over seventy something. The doctor didn't think it was a concern as it still fell in the normal range. You know me though, I kinda freaked out. So, tomorrow I will have the nurse at school check it to see if it's high again. If not, I'll try to take it easy until my next appointments.
My nine pound weight gain is now up to 11. I've had two shakes for dinner the past week. That is so not me, but once I get some sort of food in my head, I kinda have to go that route. Don't get me wrong, I ate regular food that day too, but the shake was so good!
The nursery is pretty much coming along! Mr. Later Than Most painted it this weekend. I love the cream color he picked out. Yes, I let him pick it. I'm very art deficient. You know how people look at colors and they are like, "That has a hint of orange." I sit there and wonder what in the hell they are talking about. Orange? Yellow is yellow, how does it have orange? I'm sure this is the reason that my art skills are lower than a third grade level. That's okay, you can't be good at everything.
Yes, I'm still shopping. I'm the worst at buying stuff off my own registry! LOL I mean, if I really want something, I need to be the one to buy it. There are not many big things on our registry (I have to remember to say "our" and not "mine." I also refer to the "wedding" as mine and Mr. Later Than Most does not like that!). The hubs is going skiing in Colorado this week, so the nursery is on hold. I will be washing baby clothes though and getting things ready outside of the nursery. That should keep me from shopping online!
As for the baby, he/she just moves and moves. My WHOLE STOMACH was moving today. I was laughing because it looked weird and really, really tickles. This baby is currently a night sleeper, which I'm enjoying. He/she sleeps most of the night and is awake all day. The past two nights I've been awakened by kicks though. These were at 3:30am both nights. Also, I get a lot of Braxton Hicks. I've had this for about 10 weeks. Nothing to be concerned about, but man are they annoying.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about my IVF journey. The bitterness is almost all gone now and people can tell me they are pregnant and I don't freak out. Ugh, I hate those feelings. Now that I'm thirty weeks, I worry a lot less. Can you believe it took this long? That is not a way to enjoy your pregnancy. This morning I realized that this blog will soon be about a baby. A baby that was once in a little petri dish. So, so weird!
January 18, 2011
Meetings and Such
I've realized that there is a lot of planning to do during pregnancy. Luckily, I'm a huge planner and have really enjoyed this part. At my last doctor's appointment, my OB wanted me to find a pediatrician by my 29 week appointment, which is Thursday. Yikes! How does one even start that process? Well, I turned to the internet!
By Googling my town and pediatrician reviews, a bunch of sites came up that had women recommending their pediatrician. Several people recommended one by my house. Well, today I called them to sign up for one of their prenatal meetings and. . . TAH DAH. . . they wanted us to come tonight! What? I'm so tired after have a three day weekend! But, off Mr. Later Than Most and I went to the 7pm appointment. Okay wait, details. Mr. Later Than Most had a headache, so he was being a bit of a brat. I don't blame him, I didn't want to go either, but this crap needs to be done! Hehehehehe.
I like the office's website for many reasons. It had a ton of info and plenty of links to things that appealed to me. Also, the office seemed very friendly and the are big into breastfeeding. I've convinced myself that breastfeeding is something I need to do. I'll be honest, I'm not that interested because it seems like a HUGE hassle, but I'm doing it (more on that in a minute).
We arrived at the office and they had a question and answer session. They gave us handouts and let us know how the office worked. I liked that they had two different waiting rooms. One was for healthy kids and one was for sick. That seemed like a good idea to me. She mentioned that they will serve patients who opt out of vaccinations. I've read a lot about this, and many offices do not do this anymore. Mr Later Than Most turned to me with that "I know you read too much and probably have many opinions" look. He then says, "You DO want to do the vaccinations right?" After all of my readings, yes I do. He was relieved. :) Then they showed us around and off we went.
Speaking of meetings. Tomorrow I'm going to a La Leche meeting with my friend "S." I'm saying S because I don't have her permission to use her name on here! I'm not sure if I told you the story of S or not. Long story short. . . during my IVF cycle I kept seeing a girl my age (are we girls?) that was getting her retrieval, transfer and blood work done on the same days as me. Then, on The Bump one day, I get a message from a girl. Long story shorter, it's S and she was at the same office as me! We are due the EXACT same day :) S is having twin girls! So tomorrow, S and I are off to this La Leche League meeting to get prepared for this crazy breastfeeding journey. I'm not going to lie, I've signed up for a couple of classes and read three feeding books already. I need to be prepared!
Well, my next doctor appointment is Thursday. I've had a lot of chocolate this week, so I'm sure that weight is rising. I need to stop with the chocolate already!
By Googling my town and pediatrician reviews, a bunch of sites came up that had women recommending their pediatrician. Several people recommended one by my house. Well, today I called them to sign up for one of their prenatal meetings and. . . TAH DAH. . . they wanted us to come tonight! What? I'm so tired after have a three day weekend! But, off Mr. Later Than Most and I went to the 7pm appointment. Okay wait, details. Mr. Later Than Most had a headache, so he was being a bit of a brat. I don't blame him, I didn't want to go either, but this crap needs to be done! Hehehehehe.
I like the office's website for many reasons. It had a ton of info and plenty of links to things that appealed to me. Also, the office seemed very friendly and the are big into breastfeeding. I've convinced myself that breastfeeding is something I need to do. I'll be honest, I'm not that interested because it seems like a HUGE hassle, but I'm doing it (more on that in a minute).
We arrived at the office and they had a question and answer session. They gave us handouts and let us know how the office worked. I liked that they had two different waiting rooms. One was for healthy kids and one was for sick. That seemed like a good idea to me. She mentioned that they will serve patients who opt out of vaccinations. I've read a lot about this, and many offices do not do this anymore. Mr Later Than Most turned to me with that "I know you read too much and probably have many opinions" look. He then says, "You DO want to do the vaccinations right?" After all of my readings, yes I do. He was relieved. :) Then they showed us around and off we went.
Speaking of meetings. Tomorrow I'm going to a La Leche meeting with my friend "S." I'm saying S because I don't have her permission to use her name on here! I'm not sure if I told you the story of S or not. Long story short. . . during my IVF cycle I kept seeing a girl my age (are we girls?) that was getting her retrieval, transfer and blood work done on the same days as me. Then, on The Bump one day, I get a message from a girl. Long story shorter, it's S and she was at the same office as me! We are due the EXACT same day :) S is having twin girls! So tomorrow, S and I are off to this La Leche League meeting to get prepared for this crazy breastfeeding journey. I'm not going to lie, I've signed up for a couple of classes and read three feeding books already. I need to be prepared!
Well, my next doctor appointment is Thursday. I've had a lot of chocolate this week, so I'm sure that weight is rising. I need to stop with the chocolate already!
January 12, 2011
28 Weeks: Photo
Well, 28 weeks! YAY!!!!!!! I've been buying a lot! LOL- It keeps me busy. Truly, other than this photo, I don't have too much to update. Oh. . . I did stalk my insurance company today to find that they will most likely cover childbirth class and a breastpump. NO silly, not the teacher insurance! They don't cover the good stuff. Mr. Later Than Most has fab insurance!
Here it is. . . up 9 pounds total. . .
Here it is. . . up 9 pounds total. . .
January 10, 2011
Appointment and Labor Class
Last week I had my 27 week appointment. At this point, they are easy! I was glad to see that I'm now up 8 pounds! Finally! I don't watch what I eat whatsoever, so I'm thinking I just have that random body type. Doc said my GD test was awesome. I needed a 134 or lower to pass and I had an 85. As I may have mentioned, the anemia test wasn't as good. No big deal, they upped my supplements and now I'm eating all kinds of gross foods! My iron was actually lower than it was at my 12 week appointment, so it's good that I've already been on supplements. My blood pressure was great and the baby's heart rate came in at 155 bpm. When he did my belly measurement, he reminded me how tall people can really hide a pregnancy. The measurements looked great though. I do have my next MFM appointment (and probably my last, at 31 weeks). Not much longer!
On Saturday Mr. Later Than Most and I went to childbirth class. Of course, being the teacher I am, I read a TON before going. So, I truly knew almost every thing. It was great for him though and he learned a lot. I was very impressed with his interest. I think I've got a pretty good guy here. Especially since he can deal with my craziness!
Tomorrow I will be 28 weeks. . . EEEEEK! 12 weeks to go! Mr. Later Than Most has been working up a storm on this house. We pretty much have every room done except the baby's room. I know that sounds weird, but now we can put our time into it and get it done. I'll be excited to start working on it!
Other than that, I'm just thankful for each day :)
Oh and Heather has her IVF egg retrieval on Wednesday! I think this is good luck! She and I have the same IVF timeline: trigger on Monday, ET on Wednesday, and a 5 day ET next Monday! Hang in there Heather!
On Saturday Mr. Later Than Most and I went to childbirth class. Of course, being the teacher I am, I read a TON before going. So, I truly knew almost every thing. It was great for him though and he learned a lot. I was very impressed with his interest. I think I've got a pretty good guy here. Especially since he can deal with my craziness!
Tomorrow I will be 28 weeks. . . EEEEEK! 12 weeks to go! Mr. Later Than Most has been working up a storm on this house. We pretty much have every room done except the baby's room. I know that sounds weird, but now we can put our time into it and get it done. I'll be excited to start working on it!
Other than that, I'm just thankful for each day :)
Oh and Heather has her IVF egg retrieval on Wednesday! I think this is good luck! She and I have the same IVF timeline: trigger on Monday, ET on Wednesday, and a 5 day ET next Monday! Hang in there Heather!
January 4, 2011
Lots of Random Updates
I think I have a soccer star going on. Even with the anterior placenta I truly got kicked the entire day. Actually, I really don't know the difference between kicks and hiccups yet! Yikes, that's embarassing!
I got my glucose challenge test results and I passed. :) I'm very excited about that. I didn't pass the anemia test again, so I had some liver sausage today as part of my dinner. Totally gross, but my iron was lower this time (on supplements) than it was last time at 12 weeks. So, this little kicker/iron sucker is going to start tasting new foods. Oh, and for those who don't know me IRL, I'm allergic to spinach so that treat of iron goodness is out the window!
My shower invitations started to get received today and my sister tells me that she got the first RSVP! How exciting is that? I also have birth class this Saturday. Mr. Later Than Most and I are nesting up a storm. We have to get this Little House on the Prairie ready before this kicker is here! At least we are getting it done!
27 weeks means I have 13 to go! Last night I realized I've only read a ton of pregnancy and BF books and I've read nothing about actual child care! Whoops! That starts tonight!
My next doctor appointment is on Thursday, so I should have some updates!
Fingers crossed for my TWW BFF Heather! She is stimming away for IVF and has her second u/s tomorrow!
I got my glucose challenge test results and I passed. :) I'm very excited about that. I didn't pass the anemia test again, so I had some liver sausage today as part of my dinner. Totally gross, but my iron was lower this time (on supplements) than it was last time at 12 weeks. So, this little kicker/iron sucker is going to start tasting new foods. Oh, and for those who don't know me IRL, I'm allergic to spinach so that treat of iron goodness is out the window!
My shower invitations started to get received today and my sister tells me that she got the first RSVP! How exciting is that? I also have birth class this Saturday. Mr. Later Than Most and I are nesting up a storm. We have to get this Little House on the Prairie ready before this kicker is here! At least we are getting it done!
27 weeks means I have 13 to go! Last night I realized I've only read a ton of pregnancy and BF books and I've read nothing about actual child care! Whoops! That starts tonight!
My next doctor appointment is on Thursday, so I should have some updates!
Fingers crossed for my TWW BFF Heather! She is stimming away for IVF and has her second u/s tomorrow!
January 1, 2011
A New Year and Some Flashbacks
( This is really long and the darned spell-check is missing again. Please don't hold the errors against me. I promise I'm truly an educated teacher of little children.)
Like most of you, I can't believe that it's 2011. It seems that 2010 was really a blur. Over the past few days I've sat down and gone through all of my previous posts on Blogger. Even though I lived through this whole TTC experience and wrote about it, I'm still in denial that Mr. Later Than Most and I had to resort to IVF to finally, finally conceive our first child. I remember those early days (before this blog was around) and some of those days were difficult to get through. As many girls on here know, IF puts a huge strain on your relationship, especially in the beginning. I think it's fear that does that. Both of us would question: What if it's me? What if this will never happen for us?. In an effort to protect yourselves, we both (at seperate times) wondered if we even really wanted kids. Again, this is a major defense mechanism. It's a good one too, because you can almost talk yourself out of your depression and desperation.
During that rough time, a friend told me to just keep going. Make appointments and do what I needed to do. She was sure that we would figure things out and get our TTC life on the right track. Luckily, she was right!
Last January was rough. I remember thinking, "Yea, another year without a baby. Another year of everyone making progress but us." I have that personality where if I don't get what I want, I just keep thinking and thinking about it. I don't mean material things, I mean things like this. Things for life. I think our biggest hope came when Mr. Later Than Most's company got bought-out by a larger company. Actually, it was rather scary! We wondered if he would lose his job and all of that other fun stuff that comes with take-overs. Although, when I looked at the benefits package, I started to feel a better. This new company had complete insurance coverage for infertility. It was a new gleam of hope at the right time. Before this information, there was NO WAY I could get Mr. Later Than Most on board with a $20,000 procedure that may not work. Could it have happened? Maybe. But I can say with 99% confidence, that was not in the cards for us (damn student loans).
March came with the insurance change. I called my OB right away and asked for a referral to the reproductive endocrinologist that one of the nurses talked so highly about. On my internet escapades on The Bump, I noticed girls had gone to this RE and had success. With the insurance change, Mr. Later Than Most warmed up to the idea of going to see a specialist. Not that he didn't want to, but as you can imagine, it's just a lot to swallow. A "How did we get here?" issue. I remember walking INTO the RE office for our consultation visit and Mr. Later Than Most started asking me a million infertility questions. What would the guy say? How long will this take? When will we have a plan? What is the exact anatomy in women anyway? LOL You gotta love him. I know him though, he can't focus on an event until the event is actually here.
Waiting in the lobby I specifically remember telling myself, "DO NOT CRY. DO NOT CRY." I knew Mr. Later Than Most would wonder if I truly lost my marbles (I think I did anyway). So, in we went to Dr. Miller. This guy was as charming as can be. My inner instinct kept telling me that any doctor who can get $20,000 for a procedure is probably going to charm you, but he was different. Right away he spoke like a normal person and was down to Earth. I remember his first ideas: "Look kids, you've got some issues stopping you from having kids. I'm not saying it will never happen naturally, but you've waited two years. I can give you a 4% chance of conceiving with Clomid and IUI and a 10% chance with injectable drugs and IUI. It's no secret, I make my money off of IVF, okay? But, IVF is our last resort, and I think we should go with the IUI with injectables. For IVF, I give you a 60% success rate." He seriously spewed that info out in about 60 seconds. I think he had Mr. Later Than Most when he said, "You two are going to have one nice looking baby." I'm sure it's a selling technique, but it sure worked! LOL I remember leaving and Mr. Later Than Most said, "I really like that guy! I'm excited that he's helping us." Well, from there the rest is history.
I think the one thing that you can't read in my early blog is that IVF was not on the agenda for us. Dr. Miller suggested the IUI with injectables, even though it was a low success rater for our diagnosis. The issue was that insurance gave a big "hell no" to IUI with injects. They said start at the bottom with Clomid, or skip the procedure all together. I know I was scared out of my mind to go straight to IVF, but I was a little relieved. I've been to a casino, and I know that 10% odds are not as good as 60%. I was ready for the big time.
You know, it's much easier to write this with a little baby kicking me in the ute! 13 weeks left to go.
To bring this full circle, we recently found out there is an unplanned pregnancy in our family. I totally freaked out. How can this happen? Why do people who do not try to get babies, actually get babies? Why are do some people have to pay thousands of dollars to get what you think it actually your natural right? I know I sound crazy, but it seems these are normal thoughts for someone who went through infertility. It makes you feel like shit to think like that. Here I am with everything I wanted and it worked on the first time. How friggen lucky am I? But then I sat there having a tantrum because people have babies when they aren't ready. Luckily, Mr. Later Than Most didn't run out of the house ready to commit me to the mental institution. I told him I felt totally guilty for my feelings, but this was just what infertility can do to someone. During our conversation, we looked back at all we went through, and honestly, we wouldn't have it any other way. We know without a doubt that we are ready for this new chapter. Yes, it was a shitty experience full of emotions and questions, but it was worth every minute and we'd do it again.
Cheers to 2011!
Like most of you, I can't believe that it's 2011. It seems that 2010 was really a blur. Over the past few days I've sat down and gone through all of my previous posts on Blogger. Even though I lived through this whole TTC experience and wrote about it, I'm still in denial that Mr. Later Than Most and I had to resort to IVF to finally, finally conceive our first child. I remember those early days (before this blog was around) and some of those days were difficult to get through. As many girls on here know, IF puts a huge strain on your relationship, especially in the beginning. I think it's fear that does that. Both of us would question: What if it's me? What if this will never happen for us?. In an effort to protect yourselves, we both (at seperate times) wondered if we even really wanted kids. Again, this is a major defense mechanism. It's a good one too, because you can almost talk yourself out of your depression and desperation.
During that rough time, a friend told me to just keep going. Make appointments and do what I needed to do. She was sure that we would figure things out and get our TTC life on the right track. Luckily, she was right!
Last January was rough. I remember thinking, "Yea, another year without a baby. Another year of everyone making progress but us." I have that personality where if I don't get what I want, I just keep thinking and thinking about it. I don't mean material things, I mean things like this. Things for life. I think our biggest hope came when Mr. Later Than Most's company got bought-out by a larger company. Actually, it was rather scary! We wondered if he would lose his job and all of that other fun stuff that comes with take-overs. Although, when I looked at the benefits package, I started to feel a better. This new company had complete insurance coverage for infertility. It was a new gleam of hope at the right time. Before this information, there was NO WAY I could get Mr. Later Than Most on board with a $20,000 procedure that may not work. Could it have happened? Maybe. But I can say with 99% confidence, that was not in the cards for us (damn student loans).
March came with the insurance change. I called my OB right away and asked for a referral to the reproductive endocrinologist that one of the nurses talked so highly about. On my internet escapades on The Bump, I noticed girls had gone to this RE and had success. With the insurance change, Mr. Later Than Most warmed up to the idea of going to see a specialist. Not that he didn't want to, but as you can imagine, it's just a lot to swallow. A "How did we get here?" issue. I remember walking INTO the RE office for our consultation visit and Mr. Later Than Most started asking me a million infertility questions. What would the guy say? How long will this take? When will we have a plan? What is the exact anatomy in women anyway? LOL You gotta love him. I know him though, he can't focus on an event until the event is actually here.
Waiting in the lobby I specifically remember telling myself, "DO NOT CRY. DO NOT CRY." I knew Mr. Later Than Most would wonder if I truly lost my marbles (I think I did anyway). So, in we went to Dr. Miller. This guy was as charming as can be. My inner instinct kept telling me that any doctor who can get $20,000 for a procedure is probably going to charm you, but he was different. Right away he spoke like a normal person and was down to Earth. I remember his first ideas: "Look kids, you've got some issues stopping you from having kids. I'm not saying it will never happen naturally, but you've waited two years. I can give you a 4% chance of conceiving with Clomid and IUI and a 10% chance with injectable drugs and IUI. It's no secret, I make my money off of IVF, okay? But, IVF is our last resort, and I think we should go with the IUI with injectables. For IVF, I give you a 60% success rate." He seriously spewed that info out in about 60 seconds. I think he had Mr. Later Than Most when he said, "You two are going to have one nice looking baby." I'm sure it's a selling technique, but it sure worked! LOL I remember leaving and Mr. Later Than Most said, "I really like that guy! I'm excited that he's helping us." Well, from there the rest is history.
I think the one thing that you can't read in my early blog is that IVF was not on the agenda for us. Dr. Miller suggested the IUI with injectables, even though it was a low success rater for our diagnosis. The issue was that insurance gave a big "hell no" to IUI with injects. They said start at the bottom with Clomid, or skip the procedure all together. I know I was scared out of my mind to go straight to IVF, but I was a little relieved. I've been to a casino, and I know that 10% odds are not as good as 60%. I was ready for the big time.
You know, it's much easier to write this with a little baby kicking me in the ute! 13 weeks left to go.
To bring this full circle, we recently found out there is an unplanned pregnancy in our family. I totally freaked out. How can this happen? Why do people who do not try to get babies, actually get babies? Why are do some people have to pay thousands of dollars to get what you think it actually your natural right? I know I sound crazy, but it seems these are normal thoughts for someone who went through infertility. It makes you feel like shit to think like that. Here I am with everything I wanted and it worked on the first time. How friggen lucky am I? But then I sat there having a tantrum because people have babies when they aren't ready. Luckily, Mr. Later Than Most didn't run out of the house ready to commit me to the mental institution. I told him I felt totally guilty for my feelings, but this was just what infertility can do to someone. During our conversation, we looked back at all we went through, and honestly, we wouldn't have it any other way. We know without a doubt that we are ready for this new chapter. Yes, it was a shitty experience full of emotions and questions, but it was worth every minute and we'd do it again.
Cheers to 2011!
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