April 27, 2012

Better

This week was crazy busy, but I'm happy to report that Miss B is feeling much better. Her fever finally broke on Saturday night, and we got a healthy baby back. We are still giving her the antibiotics that were prescribed, but she's better!

I was so distracted with my own awful dentist appointment (thank you pregnancy) that I never posted her test results. It turns out that her UTI infection was an Ecoli strain, and that is totally normal. So, we should have nothing to worry about! YAY! She needs to go back for a check-up on the 9th, but it turned out to be the best case scenerio. Obviously, we are very happy about that!

Since her sickness, she really hadn't been drinking anything. Now at her age, she shouldn't be as dependent on milk, but she still should be drinking. She was really only taking like 3 to 5 ounces a day. I was for sure prepared to take her back to the doctor when I finally had an idea. I switched her bottle and gave her formula again. I'm happy to report that she is not throwing her milk bottles at us anymore and she's guzzling them down. As great as that is, now that she's drinking, she less of a crab! OMG! We had some days there where I was just waiting for her bedtime to roll around so I could get away from her constant complaining! How bad is that? But now, she's rather happy again. She still tells us "no" but we all know that is normal. So back on formula we go. I bought the toddler kind and I'll only let her go through about one can. Then I'll try to wean her back to milk. We really are thinking that her milk avoidance is from her throwing it up in chunks last week. I'm not too sure if I blame her.

Thanks for reading!

April 21, 2012

This Sucks

I better type quick before I try to avoid my blog again.

Took Brooklyn to the doctor for her prolonged fever. She also threw up when I dropped her off at her nannysitter's house. I didn't really think too much of that. She wasn't complaining and just randomly threw up. She drank two more ounces than normal and I assumed she just ate too much. I called the pedi at about 3:30 to give them an update on the fever. They said they wanted her seen that evening. She and I go and of course she's a hot mess. Hot literally from the fever, but her appointment was at 5:15pm and her bedtime is 6:00. So she was a mix of hating the doctor, being sick, and ready for bed. They did a strep test and a flu culture. Have you ever had a flu culture? It's a long Qtip stuck way up your nose. Not fun for an adult let alone a baby. She cried and cried. It really is heartbreaking to see your child so upset. I never imagined it could be that rough! After those labs came back the doctor said they were both negative. I thought that was good news, but what it really meant is they still needed to find out what was wrong with her.

Apparently with the long fever and throwing up, it appeared Miss B could have a UTI and they weren't sending us home without testing. The problem? Baby plus catheter. It's kinda hard to have a one year old pee in a cup, so the catheter exam was a must and the doctor let me know that it hurt and babies don't like it one bit. I wanted cry. I was there alone because I didn't think this appointment would be that big of a deal. I was totally fighting back tears and decided that crying was NOT an option. Once Brooklyn saw me cry, then she'd be more upset and scared. I had to pretend that everything is okay. Before the test the doctor told me that UTIs in a baby this young could be from contamination but could also be an anatomy issue called urinary reflux. In this condition, the babies tubes that run from the kidneys to the bladder are windy instead of straight. What happens is urine collects in there and then can actually work it's way back to the kidneys and cause a kidney infection. As you can imagine, I do start crying at this point. I know things could totally be worse and this is really not a life-threatening thing, but it was no where near what I expected to hear.

Brooklyn was a champ with the catheter procedure. She cried but the nurses worked fast and she stopped crying as soon as they were done. Every time something hurts her I've been pointing my finger at it and telling it "no." Together, she and I told the nurses off and waited for her test results.

So UTI it is, but we won't get the results until Monday on what type. The doctor was leaning toward the urinary reflux condition, and since we've battled a couple of random fevers in the past, I think it may be that too. Before we left the doctors office, they have her an IM shot of broadspectrum antibiotic to start fighting this off. We are also giving her antibiotics orally.

That night we fought fevers in Brooklyn of up to 104. I got up every hour and checked her temperature. If you don't have an Exergen Temporal Thermometer, I think you should get one. Mine is always a degree higher, but it allowed me to take her temperature in her sleep. Mr. LTM held wet cloths on her head throughout the night, and we went back and forth wondering how you have a healthy baby one minute and an issue the next. I know this has nothing to do with us, but I'm playing mind games with myself. Why did I take her to daycare on Thursday and not call the doctor in the morning? I know the answer is because her fever was gone, but I shouldn't have worried so much about having a random substitute in my classroom and more about my own child. I did learn a lesson though and next time I won't think twice.

Brooklyn is doing better today. It seems so far that her fever has broken. Yesterday was again rough, but I think the antibiotic shot has really kicked in. She'll need an ultrasound done in the next two weeks to check her kidneys and make sure there is no infection. She'll also need a iodine test done to check her "tubes" and see if they are windy. For those infertility girls, it's similar to an HSG. Poor Brookie, I hope they are fast and rather painless.

I'll update when her test results come back. Here is a link to Children's Memorial about the urinary reflux.

April 17, 2012

Sick Baby and Tons of Crap

Ok, that title is once again a little misleading, but I have to lure my readers back in somehow!

Yea so Miss B is sick. Well, not really sick just fever sick. This has happened several times. She has nothing wrong with her and then starts running a fever of about 103. I would tell you that it is teeth related, but my pedi says she doesn't believe in that stuff. Uh, "believe in?" I mean, it's not Santa It's a fever. So, I'm playing the Advil Alternate Tylenol game because I don't want her to be uncomfortable.

Ok, onto "tons of crap." I have so much baby crap!!! Do I sell it? I don't know if there will be a baby number two. I mean, if Mr. LTM comes home with one more Wendy's Spicy Chicken while I'm counting calories, I may have to get rid of him. No seriously, so far I've been selling a lot of stuff. I mean, if I did have a second baby, it could be a boy. So, I've been reselling my girl stuff. And if I had another girl, I'll just rebuy things. Come on, you've seen my shopping problem from previous posts. I'd love rebuying stuff. Oh, and I promise to rebuy things that are second hand. Then I won't seem like such a nutso!

I've got some sleepsacks and my car seat adaptor for my beloved City Mini on Craiglist. I can't decide if I should list my rocker. It truly takes up more room than we have (my house is like 900sq ft), but every time I think about listing it, I picture my nights of rocking Brooklyn to sleep in it when she was just bitty. I think I've connected too much emotion to it, so it may have to stay. Plus, I keep thinking that maybe she'll want to read books in it when she can climb into it herself!

Be ready for my next post this week. I need to really think if I'm ready for baby #2 and a summer IVF. I go to my doctor on Monday and it was the office that makes my referral to the IVF Institute. I really need to think about this!

April 11, 2012

I'm the Worst!

I'm truly the worst and so predictable. Well, obviously because of my nonblogging, but there may be a reason.

So, I'm normally very good at following through with things. If you've followed this blog since the beginning, you know that I was rather good at keeping up. Of course, after Brooklyn came that changed a little, but I'm afraid to say that lately I've been avoiding the blog. Before Blogger I had always kept a journal and I did the same thing.

When something big comes up in my life, I kinda don't like to document it because it makes it permanent. For example, when my beloved Labrador died a few years back, I just stopped writing in my journal altogether. It kept me from experiencing the pain all over again. I mean, when you write about it in detail, you have to live it. . . again.

So try to guess, what I have I been avoiding by not coming to Blogger? Ahhh my internet friend, view the ticker at the top of this page. My little baby girl is now 1 year old. I've totally been avoiding it! I mean, I planned her cute little party and everything, but it's very, very bittersweet. For years and years, all I wanted was a baby. And finally when Mr. Later Than Most and I were on the same page, it took more years to get that baby. Now, we don't have a baby anymore, we have a little toddler. The baby is all grown up and Miss B is nothing like a baby!

So, I've totally been avoiding an update on here for awhile. I think once I started party planning I didn't want to update and realize that my baby is becoming a big girl. I'm sure this sounds weird to most, but maybe someone out there can understand. Confession, I cried a few tears this weekend coming to terms with it all.

I don't know what journey lies ahead for us. The thought of another baby sounds great, but one more would be our limit. The thought of trying for our baby instead of IVF actually scares me a bit. Doesn't that sound ass backwards? LOL It's just when you try for a baby for two years and nothing happens, it kinda tears apart your relationship a little and really adds a lot of stress. I don't ever want to experience that again. Another IVF though? Count me in. I was one of the lucky ones with no real side effects. I'd do those shots again in a heartbeat.

Mr. LTM and I do have two frozen embies but it's all complicated. We'll lose a lot of our infertility coverage in November. So, do we rush and try to use our coverage while we have it or do we just play the cards and see what happens? We aren't sure yet.

I can tell you that most of my friends that wanted babies now have them. Isn't that the way it should be? If you want a baby, you should be able to have one? When I look at Brooklyn, I can't believe she is a Science baby. She's just so normal! Not that science babies wouldn't be normal, but I forget where she came from :)

Ok I lied, she's not normal. She says like 12 words. That's a ton!!!!! Little Miss Social Butterfly (kinda like her momma). Today she counted to three! OK but it sounds like this, "Uh, oooo, eeee!" Hahahaha. So cute. Don't worry, she wasn't counting objects. She was counting just to talk.

So I don't know where my next path is, but I do know that I can now quit avoiding this blog since I've finally come to terms with the fact that my little Miss Brookie is getting to be a big girl.