Yes, that's Miss Brookie. Chatting away. We don't know what happened, but within the last week her talking and vocabulary has picked up so much. She was talking away before, but this week has brought a lot of short sentences. Our favorite is "I love you!" which actually comes out "I lula lu." Either way, we know what she is saying and it's just adorable. She is also all about calling the dog lately. The dog is Oakley and Brooklyn can clearly say "Oak!" In fact, her first words in the morning are "Oak" or "That" as she points to what she wants.
Brookie is a daddy's girl anyway you see it. Well, for one they have the same short fuse and temper :) If Brooklyn can't get a toy just right or get a puzzle piece on, one can hear her yelling "bad" at the puzzle or going "UHHHHHHHHHHH!" It's cute now, but who would like this child when she's a teenager? I'm sure it'll get worse then! Either way, when these two drive me crazy with their tempers, I just resort to a little online shopping!
We did finally have Brooklyn's ultrasound done and it all looks good. The doctor mentioned that we needed to rush in at the next fever that wasn't followed by signs of an illness. Memorial day weekend we just about freaked out when she was running a low temp of 100.1. Luckily it went right away so I'd assume her two new teeth were the culprit. Speaking of teeth, she only has 6! I'm using that as an excuse to still feed her baby food with her finger foods!
Brooklyn is almost up and walking. I'm a bad mom because I'm kinda not encouraging the walking! We leave for Disney World in about 10 days and I don't want her walking before then! If she always wants out of her stroller I'll be in so much trouble! After that, she can walk all she wants!
My next blog title shall be "Baby Number Two." No, there was no miracle for this infertility patient :)
June 3, 2012
May 13, 2012
Screw You, Technology
Did you ever see that Google Chrome commercial with the new dad? It came out right around the time Brooklyn was born. The point was that this dad had emailed his baby and sent her videos and then she was suddenly all grown up. The email allowed them to see what they had sent over the years.
I was inspired and did that. The commercial made me cry so many tears as I thought about Brookie growing up so fast. So, I started my journey after she was a couple of weeks old. I sent her messages, videos and pictures from my cell phone. Some of the videos I sent were from my old cell phone and I sent them as a way to recover them before it died.
I'd like to throw up as I tell you that I made a rookie mistake and didn't login to Brooklyn's email for over four months. Yahoo automatically deleted our account, and I've lost all of my documentation, pictures, messages to my baby. I'm soooooooooo sad. I hope someone can learn from my mistake.
I'm off to email Yahoo anyway. Even though their policy says they can't recover, I do have a lot to lose.
DAMN IT.
I was inspired and did that. The commercial made me cry so many tears as I thought about Brookie growing up so fast. So, I started my journey after she was a couple of weeks old. I sent her messages, videos and pictures from my cell phone. Some of the videos I sent were from my old cell phone and I sent them as a way to recover them before it died.
I'd like to throw up as I tell you that I made a rookie mistake and didn't login to Brooklyn's email for over four months. Yahoo automatically deleted our account, and I've lost all of my documentation, pictures, messages to my baby. I'm soooooooooo sad. I hope someone can learn from my mistake.
I'm off to email Yahoo anyway. Even though their policy says they can't recover, I do have a lot to lose.
DAMN IT.
May 12, 2012
B Updates
We went to Brooklyn's post UTI checkup this week. It looks like the doctors were not concerned with her lymph nodes this time, yay! They did want to check to make sure her UTI was gone, but they didn't want to put in a catheter again since she is still semi traumatized from the last visit. They did a bag collection this time. So, they literally used a bag with adhesive, spread her girly parts and stuck the bag to her. Then we put her diaper back on and fed her a shit ton of water and formula (yes not milk. That's a different story!). So, my stubborn little baby waited about 2.5 hours before she actually peed. The doctor had come in just minutes before and said that he was giving her another 10 minutes and then they would have to do the catheter, otherwise they risked the sample being unsterile. Luckily, the preliminary test results showed the UTI to be gone and today's lab results confirmed! I'm one happy momma!
On May 22nd she will go to get an ultrasound to check her kidneys and make sure she has no kidney scarring. If that turns out well, the doctor said he does not want her to do the internal iodine (VUG) test because of the radiation. I'm praying it all comes out normal, because if it doesn't, I don't want her to have that test done AT ALL.
Tomorrow will be my second Mother's Day! Last year Brooklyn was 1 month old on Mother's Day! She was such a tiny little thing. Today she was crawling all over the house and walking with her walking toys. We went to lunch at Portillo's and she made me share my chopped salad with her. Oh the fun of being a mom ;) Tomorrow I will be enjoying every minute of her!
On Mother's Day I always think about all of those who suffer from infertility and want a baby. Mother's Day was always very, very hard for me when I was trying to have my own baby. I remember wondering if I would ever get to be a mother to someone. Those days still hurt.
A girl friend sent this to me today. She said her sister-in-law framed it for her for Mother's Day. It made me cry.
Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there. For those waiting and wanting to be mothers, my thoughts are with you tomorrow. When your day comes, I promise it'll be worth the wait.
On May 22nd she will go to get an ultrasound to check her kidneys and make sure she has no kidney scarring. If that turns out well, the doctor said he does not want her to do the internal iodine (VUG) test because of the radiation. I'm praying it all comes out normal, because if it doesn't, I don't want her to have that test done AT ALL.
Tomorrow will be my second Mother's Day! Last year Brooklyn was 1 month old on Mother's Day! She was such a tiny little thing. Today she was crawling all over the house and walking with her walking toys. We went to lunch at Portillo's and she made me share my chopped salad with her. Oh the fun of being a mom ;) Tomorrow I will be enjoying every minute of her!
On Mother's Day I always think about all of those who suffer from infertility and want a baby. Mother's Day was always very, very hard for me when I was trying to have my own baby. I remember wondering if I would ever get to be a mother to someone. Those days still hurt.
A girl friend sent this to me today. She said her sister-in-law framed it for her for Mother's Day. It made me cry.
A child preparing to be born asked God,
“They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?”
God answered, “Among the many angels, I chose one for you. She will be waiting for you and will take care of you.”
The child paused and again addressed God. “But tell me, here in Heaven, I don’t do anything else but sing and smile, that’s enough for me to be happy.”
“Your angel will sing for you and also smile for you every day and you will feel your angel’s love and be happy,” God replied.
“Oh,” the child said, “and how am I going to be able to understand the language that men speak?” And then, glancing at God the child asked, “What am I going to do when I want to talk to you?”
God softly touched the child on the head and said, “Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.”
The child then asked, “I have heard that on earth there is evil. Who will protect me?”
“Ah,” God answered, “your angel will defend you even if it means risking her own life.”
“But, I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.”
“Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me, even though I will always be next to you.” God said.
At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard, and the child in a hurry asked softly, “Oh, God, if I am about to leave now, please tell me my angel’s name.”
Sweetly, God looked at the child and whispered, “Your angel’s name is of no importance.
You will simply call her MOM.”
~ Author Unknown ~
Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there. For those waiting and wanting to be mothers, my thoughts are with you tomorrow. When your day comes, I promise it'll be worth the wait.
May 4, 2012
Update
So about this week:
On Monday Brooklyn and I get home from a regular day of work and nannysitter. I'm changing her diaper and wtf is that? Seemingly two protrusions (next to each other) in her groin area kinda near her thigh. FML, another problem. I press on it and she cries so right away I figure this is going to be the start of a Monday night journey. I call my mom and ask her what a hernia looks like. I had a double hernia removed at the ripe old age of 2, so I thought it could be that. What my mom describes is EXACTLY what I see. You have to be kidding me.
After a call to the doctor's office the nurse can't decided if I should bring Brooklyn in or not. She asked me if the bump was from fastening a diaper. I was proud of myself for not asking her if she thought I was an idiot. Either way, they called back and wanted to see her right away. We arrive at 7:15 for our 7:45 appointment but they don't actually see us until 8:30. Brooklyn's bedtime is 6:00pm. She was in good spirits until she saw the doctor. As soon as she saw the doctor she broke out in a sweat and turned a bright shade of red. Mr. LTM thought she was choking. The doctor said that Brooklyn easily remember her last appointment (with the cath) and that she was probably nervous. It sucks to watch your kid panic.
So, a long exam and they rule out hernia because it actually wasn't a tender area. It appears Brooklyn seems to think that we'll keep doing horrible exams on her so she cries when we are touching her, not from pain. Poor dear. Our diaper changes have been a real challenge. So, the diagnosis looks to be swollen lymph nodes, hopefully from the UTI. The doctor seemed to think we should have noticed them already and that it was late to be UTI related, but I'm over that by now. She said that maybe she's fighting something else and that our bodies are "always fighting cancer cells." OMFG, who says that? Thanks doc. Thanks for sending me into a temporary panic, because I'm not a worrier enough already.
I left the appointment crying. It's always something. They see us again on May 9 for the follow-up UTI appointment. They'll check the swollen lymph nodes and make sure they have not gotten bigger. They'll also do the catheter again (poor baby) to check the urine. Also, they'll have me schedule her ultrasound and dye test. They want to make sure everything is in tip top shape.
When I got home I drank about a half a bottle of wine and felt much better. I know that sounds weird but it really does take the edge off. The good news is that today I didn't really see those bumps anymore. I even pushed Brooklyn's legs down (that's how I first found them. A struggle during a diaper change.) and didn't see anything. So, I'm hoping that they are gone and that I just didn't miss seeing them. The even better news is that she acts 100% normal and is the cutest thing ever. She says "good girl" now and points to herself. How could you not adore that?
On Monday Brooklyn and I get home from a regular day of work and nannysitter. I'm changing her diaper and wtf is that? Seemingly two protrusions (next to each other) in her groin area kinda near her thigh. FML, another problem. I press on it and she cries so right away I figure this is going to be the start of a Monday night journey. I call my mom and ask her what a hernia looks like. I had a double hernia removed at the ripe old age of 2, so I thought it could be that. What my mom describes is EXACTLY what I see. You have to be kidding me.
After a call to the doctor's office the nurse can't decided if I should bring Brooklyn in or not. She asked me if the bump was from fastening a diaper. I was proud of myself for not asking her if she thought I was an idiot. Either way, they called back and wanted to see her right away. We arrive at 7:15 for our 7:45 appointment but they don't actually see us until 8:30. Brooklyn's bedtime is 6:00pm. She was in good spirits until she saw the doctor. As soon as she saw the doctor she broke out in a sweat and turned a bright shade of red. Mr. LTM thought she was choking. The doctor said that Brooklyn easily remember her last appointment (with the cath) and that she was probably nervous. It sucks to watch your kid panic.
So, a long exam and they rule out hernia because it actually wasn't a tender area. It appears Brooklyn seems to think that we'll keep doing horrible exams on her so she cries when we are touching her, not from pain. Poor dear. Our diaper changes have been a real challenge. So, the diagnosis looks to be swollen lymph nodes, hopefully from the UTI. The doctor seemed to think we should have noticed them already and that it was late to be UTI related, but I'm over that by now. She said that maybe she's fighting something else and that our bodies are "always fighting cancer cells." OMFG, who says that? Thanks doc. Thanks for sending me into a temporary panic, because I'm not a worrier enough already.
I left the appointment crying. It's always something. They see us again on May 9 for the follow-up UTI appointment. They'll check the swollen lymph nodes and make sure they have not gotten bigger. They'll also do the catheter again (poor baby) to check the urine. Also, they'll have me schedule her ultrasound and dye test. They want to make sure everything is in tip top shape.
When I got home I drank about a half a bottle of wine and felt much better. I know that sounds weird but it really does take the edge off. The good news is that today I didn't really see those bumps anymore. I even pushed Brooklyn's legs down (that's how I first found them. A struggle during a diaper change.) and didn't see anything. So, I'm hoping that they are gone and that I just didn't miss seeing them. The even better news is that she acts 100% normal and is the cutest thing ever. She says "good girl" now and points to herself. How could you not adore that?
May 1, 2012
Parenting
If I remember back to all of those days that I wanted a baby, I wanted just that, a baby. Never once was I thinking ahead to all of the heartache that kids cause you. I mean, I know the day will come when Brooklyn is in middle school, ditches class, and ends up at the mall. This isn't the heartache. It's the kind that the mother of a sick child goes though. I've been following little Avery's blog as most of you had, and I'm extremely sad today as Avery lived her last day yesterday. I couldn't read the whole blog today, it's too hard. And I do know that's selfish of me. But those pictures make me cry my eyes out. Her parents have been very clear on how they don't want people to feel sorry for Avery or the family, but I'm going to have to break their rule.
We spent some of last night at the doctor with Brooklyn, but today that's not important. I can blog about it later. If you can muster the courage and haven't already, head over to Avery's blog. While your at it, send some extra prayers to the family.
Avery, you are one precious little angel my dear. Thanks for educating us.
We spent some of last night at the doctor with Brooklyn, but today that's not important. I can blog about it later. If you can muster the courage and haven't already, head over to Avery's blog. While your at it, send some extra prayers to the family.
Avery, you are one precious little angel my dear. Thanks for educating us.
April 27, 2012
Better
This week was crazy busy, but I'm happy to report that Miss B is feeling much better. Her fever finally broke on Saturday night, and we got a healthy baby back. We are still giving her the antibiotics that were prescribed, but she's better!
I was so distracted with my own awful dentist appointment (thank you pregnancy) that I never posted her test results. It turns out that her UTI infection was an Ecoli strain, and that is totally normal. So, we should have nothing to worry about! YAY! She needs to go back for a check-up on the 9th, but it turned out to be the best case scenerio. Obviously, we are very happy about that!
Since her sickness, she really hadn't been drinking anything. Now at her age, she shouldn't be as dependent on milk, but she still should be drinking. She was really only taking like 3 to 5 ounces a day. I was for sure prepared to take her back to the doctor when I finally had an idea. I switched her bottle and gave her formula again. I'm happy to report that she is not throwing her milk bottles at us anymore and she's guzzling them down. As great as that is, now that she's drinking, she less of a crab! OMG! We had some days there where I was just waiting for her bedtime to roll around so I could get away from her constant complaining! How bad is that? But now, she's rather happy again. She still tells us "no" but we all know that is normal. So back on formula we go. I bought the toddler kind and I'll only let her go through about one can. Then I'll try to wean her back to milk. We really are thinking that her milk avoidance is from her throwing it up in chunks last week. I'm not too sure if I blame her.
Thanks for reading!
I was so distracted with my own awful dentist appointment (thank you pregnancy) that I never posted her test results. It turns out that her UTI infection was an Ecoli strain, and that is totally normal. So, we should have nothing to worry about! YAY! She needs to go back for a check-up on the 9th, but it turned out to be the best case scenerio. Obviously, we are very happy about that!
Since her sickness, she really hadn't been drinking anything. Now at her age, she shouldn't be as dependent on milk, but she still should be drinking. She was really only taking like 3 to 5 ounces a day. I was for sure prepared to take her back to the doctor when I finally had an idea. I switched her bottle and gave her formula again. I'm happy to report that she is not throwing her milk bottles at us anymore and she's guzzling them down. As great as that is, now that she's drinking, she less of a crab! OMG! We had some days there where I was just waiting for her bedtime to roll around so I could get away from her constant complaining! How bad is that? But now, she's rather happy again. She still tells us "no" but we all know that is normal. So back on formula we go. I bought the toddler kind and I'll only let her go through about one can. Then I'll try to wean her back to milk. We really are thinking that her milk avoidance is from her throwing it up in chunks last week. I'm not too sure if I blame her.
Thanks for reading!
April 21, 2012
This Sucks
I better type quick before I try to avoid my blog again.
Took Brooklyn to the doctor for her prolonged fever. She also threw up when I dropped her off at her nannysitter's house. I didn't really think too much of that. She wasn't complaining and just randomly threw up. She drank two more ounces than normal and I assumed she just ate too much. I called the pedi at about 3:30 to give them an update on the fever. They said they wanted her seen that evening. She and I go and of course she's a hot mess. Hot literally from the fever, but her appointment was at 5:15pm and her bedtime is 6:00. So she was a mix of hating the doctor, being sick, and ready for bed. They did a strep test and a flu culture. Have you ever had a flu culture? It's a long Qtip stuck way up your nose. Not fun for an adult let alone a baby. She cried and cried. It really is heartbreaking to see your child so upset. I never imagined it could be that rough! After those labs came back the doctor said they were both negative. I thought that was good news, but what it really meant is they still needed to find out what was wrong with her.
Apparently with the long fever and throwing up, it appeared Miss B could have a UTI and they weren't sending us home without testing. The problem? Baby plus catheter. It's kinda hard to have a one year old pee in a cup, so the catheter exam was a must and the doctor let me know that it hurt and babies don't like it one bit. I wanted cry. I was there alone because I didn't think this appointment would be that big of a deal. I was totally fighting back tears and decided that crying was NOT an option. Once Brooklyn saw me cry, then she'd be more upset and scared. I had to pretend that everything is okay. Before the test the doctor told me that UTIs in a baby this young could be from contamination but could also be an anatomy issue called urinary reflux. In this condition, the babies tubes that run from the kidneys to the bladder are windy instead of straight. What happens is urine collects in there and then can actually work it's way back to the kidneys and cause a kidney infection. As you can imagine, I do start crying at this point. I know things could totally be worse and this is really not a life-threatening thing, but it was no where near what I expected to hear.
Brooklyn was a champ with the catheter procedure. She cried but the nurses worked fast and she stopped crying as soon as they were done. Every time something hurts her I've been pointing my finger at it and telling it "no." Together, she and I told the nurses off and waited for her test results.
So UTI it is, but we won't get the results until Monday on what type. The doctor was leaning toward the urinary reflux condition, and since we've battled a couple of random fevers in the past, I think it may be that too. Before we left the doctors office, they have her an IM shot of broadspectrum antibiotic to start fighting this off. We are also giving her antibiotics orally.
That night we fought fevers in Brooklyn of up to 104. I got up every hour and checked her temperature. If you don't have an Exergen Temporal Thermometer, I think you should get one. Mine is always a degree higher, but it allowed me to take her temperature in her sleep. Mr. LTM held wet cloths on her head throughout the night, and we went back and forth wondering how you have a healthy baby one minute and an issue the next. I know this has nothing to do with us, but I'm playing mind games with myself. Why did I take her to daycare on Thursday and not call the doctor in the morning? I know the answer is because her fever was gone, but I shouldn't have worried so much about having a random substitute in my classroom and more about my own child. I did learn a lesson though and next time I won't think twice.
Brooklyn is doing better today. It seems so far that her fever has broken. Yesterday was again rough, but I think the antibiotic shot has really kicked in. She'll need an ultrasound done in the next two weeks to check her kidneys and make sure there is no infection. She'll also need a iodine test done to check her "tubes" and see if they are windy. For those infertility girls, it's similar to an HSG. Poor Brookie, I hope they are fast and rather painless.
I'll update when her test results come back. Here is a link to Children's Memorial about the urinary reflux.
Took Brooklyn to the doctor for her prolonged fever. She also threw up when I dropped her off at her nannysitter's house. I didn't really think too much of that. She wasn't complaining and just randomly threw up. She drank two more ounces than normal and I assumed she just ate too much. I called the pedi at about 3:30 to give them an update on the fever. They said they wanted her seen that evening. She and I go and of course she's a hot mess. Hot literally from the fever, but her appointment was at 5:15pm and her bedtime is 6:00. So she was a mix of hating the doctor, being sick, and ready for bed. They did a strep test and a flu culture. Have you ever had a flu culture? It's a long Qtip stuck way up your nose. Not fun for an adult let alone a baby. She cried and cried. It really is heartbreaking to see your child so upset. I never imagined it could be that rough! After those labs came back the doctor said they were both negative. I thought that was good news, but what it really meant is they still needed to find out what was wrong with her.
Apparently with the long fever and throwing up, it appeared Miss B could have a UTI and they weren't sending us home without testing. The problem? Baby plus catheter. It's kinda hard to have a one year old pee in a cup, so the catheter exam was a must and the doctor let me know that it hurt and babies don't like it one bit. I wanted cry. I was there alone because I didn't think this appointment would be that big of a deal. I was totally fighting back tears and decided that crying was NOT an option. Once Brooklyn saw me cry, then she'd be more upset and scared. I had to pretend that everything is okay. Before the test the doctor told me that UTIs in a baby this young could be from contamination but could also be an anatomy issue called urinary reflux. In this condition, the babies tubes that run from the kidneys to the bladder are windy instead of straight. What happens is urine collects in there and then can actually work it's way back to the kidneys and cause a kidney infection. As you can imagine, I do start crying at this point. I know things could totally be worse and this is really not a life-threatening thing, but it was no where near what I expected to hear.
Brooklyn was a champ with the catheter procedure. She cried but the nurses worked fast and she stopped crying as soon as they were done. Every time something hurts her I've been pointing my finger at it and telling it "no." Together, she and I told the nurses off and waited for her test results.
So UTI it is, but we won't get the results until Monday on what type. The doctor was leaning toward the urinary reflux condition, and since we've battled a couple of random fevers in the past, I think it may be that too. Before we left the doctors office, they have her an IM shot of broadspectrum antibiotic to start fighting this off. We are also giving her antibiotics orally.
That night we fought fevers in Brooklyn of up to 104. I got up every hour and checked her temperature. If you don't have an Exergen Temporal Thermometer, I think you should get one. Mine is always a degree higher, but it allowed me to take her temperature in her sleep. Mr. LTM held wet cloths on her head throughout the night, and we went back and forth wondering how you have a healthy baby one minute and an issue the next. I know this has nothing to do with us, but I'm playing mind games with myself. Why did I take her to daycare on Thursday and not call the doctor in the morning? I know the answer is because her fever was gone, but I shouldn't have worried so much about having a random substitute in my classroom and more about my own child. I did learn a lesson though and next time I won't think twice.
Brooklyn is doing better today. It seems so far that her fever has broken. Yesterday was again rough, but I think the antibiotic shot has really kicked in. She'll need an ultrasound done in the next two weeks to check her kidneys and make sure there is no infection. She'll also need a iodine test done to check her "tubes" and see if they are windy. For those infertility girls, it's similar to an HSG. Poor Brookie, I hope they are fast and rather painless.
I'll update when her test results come back. Here is a link to Children's Memorial about the urinary reflux.
April 17, 2012
Sick Baby and Tons of Crap
Ok, that title is once again a little misleading, but I have to lure my readers back in somehow!
Yea so Miss B is sick. Well, not really sick just fever sick. This has happened several times. She has nothing wrong with her and then starts running a fever of about 103. I would tell you that it is teeth related, but my pedi says she doesn't believe in that stuff. Uh, "believe in?" I mean, it's not Santa It's a fever. So, I'm playing the Advil Alternate Tylenol game because I don't want her to be uncomfortable.
Ok, onto "tons of crap." I have so much baby crap!!! Do I sell it? I don't know if there will be a baby number two. I mean, if Mr. LTM comes home with one more Wendy's Spicy Chicken while I'm counting calories, I may have to get rid of him. No seriously, so far I've been selling a lot of stuff. I mean, if I did have a second baby, it could be a boy. So, I've been reselling my girl stuff. And if I had another girl, I'll just rebuy things. Come on, you've seen my shopping problem from previous posts. I'd love rebuying stuff. Oh, and I promise to rebuy things that are second hand. Then I won't seem like such a nutso!
I've got some sleepsacks and my car seat adaptor for my beloved City Mini on Craiglist. I can't decide if I should list my rocker. It truly takes up more room than we have (my house is like 900sq ft), but every time I think about listing it, I picture my nights of rocking Brooklyn to sleep in it when she was just bitty. I think I've connected too much emotion to it, so it may have to stay. Plus, I keep thinking that maybe she'll want to read books in it when she can climb into it herself!
Be ready for my next post this week. I need to really think if I'm ready for baby #2 and a summer IVF. I go to my doctor on Monday and it was the office that makes my referral to the IVF Institute. I really need to think about this!
Yea so Miss B is sick. Well, not really sick just fever sick. This has happened several times. She has nothing wrong with her and then starts running a fever of about 103. I would tell you that it is teeth related, but my pedi says she doesn't believe in that stuff. Uh, "believe in?" I mean, it's not Santa It's a fever. So, I'm playing the Advil Alternate Tylenol game because I don't want her to be uncomfortable.
Ok, onto "tons of crap." I have so much baby crap!!! Do I sell it? I don't know if there will be a baby number two. I mean, if Mr. LTM comes home with one more Wendy's Spicy Chicken while I'm counting calories, I may have to get rid of him. No seriously, so far I've been selling a lot of stuff. I mean, if I did have a second baby, it could be a boy. So, I've been reselling my girl stuff. And if I had another girl, I'll just rebuy things. Come on, you've seen my shopping problem from previous posts. I'd love rebuying stuff. Oh, and I promise to rebuy things that are second hand. Then I won't seem like such a nutso!
I've got some sleepsacks and my car seat adaptor for my beloved City Mini on Craiglist. I can't decide if I should list my rocker. It truly takes up more room than we have (my house is like 900sq ft), but every time I think about listing it, I picture my nights of rocking Brooklyn to sleep in it when she was just bitty. I think I've connected too much emotion to it, so it may have to stay. Plus, I keep thinking that maybe she'll want to read books in it when she can climb into it herself!
Be ready for my next post this week. I need to really think if I'm ready for baby #2 and a summer IVF. I go to my doctor on Monday and it was the office that makes my referral to the IVF Institute. I really need to think about this!
April 11, 2012
I'm the Worst!
I'm truly the worst and so predictable. Well, obviously because of my nonblogging, but there may be a reason.
So, I'm normally very good at following through with things. If you've followed this blog since the beginning, you know that I was rather good at keeping up. Of course, after Brooklyn came that changed a little, but I'm afraid to say that lately I've been avoiding the blog. Before Blogger I had always kept a journal and I did the same thing.
When something big comes up in my life, I kinda don't like to document it because it makes it permanent. For example, when my beloved Labrador died a few years back, I just stopped writing in my journal altogether. It kept me from experiencing the pain all over again. I mean, when you write about it in detail, you have to live it. . . again.
So try to guess, what I have I been avoiding by not coming to Blogger? Ahhh my internet friend, view the ticker at the top of this page. My little baby girl is now 1 year old. I've totally been avoiding it! I mean, I planned her cute little party and everything, but it's very, very bittersweet. For years and years, all I wanted was a baby. And finally when Mr. Later Than Most and I were on the same page, it took more years to get that baby. Now, we don't have a baby anymore, we have a little toddler. The baby is all grown up and Miss B is nothing like a baby!
So, I've totally been avoiding an update on here for awhile. I think once I started party planning I didn't want to update and realize that my baby is becoming a big girl. I'm sure this sounds weird to most, but maybe someone out there can understand. Confession, I cried a few tears this weekend coming to terms with it all.
I don't know what journey lies ahead for us. The thought of another baby sounds great, but one more would be our limit. The thought of trying for our baby instead of IVF actually scares me a bit. Doesn't that sound ass backwards? LOL It's just when you try for a baby for two years and nothing happens, it kinda tears apart your relationship a little and really adds a lot of stress. I don't ever want to experience that again. Another IVF though? Count me in. I was one of the lucky ones with no real side effects. I'd do those shots again in a heartbeat.
Mr. LTM and I do have two frozen embies but it's all complicated. We'll lose a lot of our infertility coverage in November. So, do we rush and try to use our coverage while we have it or do we just play the cards and see what happens? We aren't sure yet.
I can tell you that most of my friends that wanted babies now have them. Isn't that the way it should be? If you want a baby, you should be able to have one? When I look at Brooklyn, I can't believe she is a Science baby. She's just so normal! Not that science babies wouldn't be normal, but I forget where she came from :)
Ok I lied, she's not normal. She says like 12 words. That's a ton!!!!! Little Miss Social Butterfly (kinda like her momma). Today she counted to three! OK but it sounds like this, "Uh, oooo, eeee!" Hahahaha. So cute. Don't worry, she wasn't counting objects. She was counting just to talk.
So I don't know where my next path is, but I do know that I can now quit avoiding this blog since I've finally come to terms with the fact that my little Miss Brookie is getting to be a big girl.
So, I'm normally very good at following through with things. If you've followed this blog since the beginning, you know that I was rather good at keeping up. Of course, after Brooklyn came that changed a little, but I'm afraid to say that lately I've been avoiding the blog. Before Blogger I had always kept a journal and I did the same thing.
When something big comes up in my life, I kinda don't like to document it because it makes it permanent. For example, when my beloved Labrador died a few years back, I just stopped writing in my journal altogether. It kept me from experiencing the pain all over again. I mean, when you write about it in detail, you have to live it. . . again.
So try to guess, what I have I been avoiding by not coming to Blogger? Ahhh my internet friend, view the ticker at the top of this page. My little baby girl is now 1 year old. I've totally been avoiding it! I mean, I planned her cute little party and everything, but it's very, very bittersweet. For years and years, all I wanted was a baby. And finally when Mr. Later Than Most and I were on the same page, it took more years to get that baby. Now, we don't have a baby anymore, we have a little toddler. The baby is all grown up and Miss B is nothing like a baby!
So, I've totally been avoiding an update on here for awhile. I think once I started party planning I didn't want to update and realize that my baby is becoming a big girl. I'm sure this sounds weird to most, but maybe someone out there can understand. Confession, I cried a few tears this weekend coming to terms with it all.
I don't know what journey lies ahead for us. The thought of another baby sounds great, but one more would be our limit. The thought of trying for our baby instead of IVF actually scares me a bit. Doesn't that sound ass backwards? LOL It's just when you try for a baby for two years and nothing happens, it kinda tears apart your relationship a little and really adds a lot of stress. I don't ever want to experience that again. Another IVF though? Count me in. I was one of the lucky ones with no real side effects. I'd do those shots again in a heartbeat.
Mr. LTM and I do have two frozen embies but it's all complicated. We'll lose a lot of our infertility coverage in November. So, do we rush and try to use our coverage while we have it or do we just play the cards and see what happens? We aren't sure yet.
I can tell you that most of my friends that wanted babies now have them. Isn't that the way it should be? If you want a baby, you should be able to have one? When I look at Brooklyn, I can't believe she is a Science baby. She's just so normal! Not that science babies wouldn't be normal, but I forget where she came from :)
Ok I lied, she's not normal. She says like 12 words. That's a ton!!!!! Little Miss Social Butterfly (kinda like her momma). Today she counted to three! OK but it sounds like this, "Uh, oooo, eeee!" Hahahaha. So cute. Don't worry, she wasn't counting objects. She was counting just to talk.
So I don't know where my next path is, but I do know that I can now quit avoiding this blog since I've finally come to terms with the fact that my little Miss Brookie is getting to be a big girl.
January 16, 2012
The big 9
Ahhh, she's nine months old. Nine months and full of what we call, "Brookitude!" She is an independent as they come and has a mind all of her own. She's one of those babies that will keep crawling over to something that you've said no to about ten times. Did I mention she's crawling?
Let's see what's new with B. Well, her nine month check up went great! She is weighing in at 17lb7oz which is the 38%ile. She's in the 94%ile for height and she's 29 inches long. She's one tall girl! The crawling started about two days after Christmas. She was getting up on her knees and then just plopping to her stomach and then one day, she just started crawling! Now she's rather fast and get's into whatever she can!
About two weeks after the crawling her first tooth came in. I knew it was coming because she was CRAB-BY! Ha! Pretty much she was not being herself for an entire weekend. I'm afraid that she'll be getting another one in the next day or so because she's kinda acting the same way! Oh, and the amount of drool is crazy!
Miss B is social butterfly for sure. The doctor was surprised to know that she says many words already. She knows and says the regular dada and baba at the right times. She also says: hi, bye, woof-woof-, dance and bug. I have to admit. . . her "dance" sounds like "DAN" and her bug is more "BU." Either way, we know what she's saying.
As the doctor said, this one is a "pistol." Hence crawling repeatedly to something that we've just said "no" to. Our favorite is as you are telling her no, she shakes her head no and then does that thing anyway. Mr. Later Than Most and I laugh at the sight of that each day. It's too cute!
I hate to admit that I've already ordered Brooklyn's birthday party invitations. Can you believe it? We are all set and booked to have her party at Gymboree Play and Music. I'm excited that I found a place. Our house is way too small so I'm so glad to go somewhere. It looks like we are doing a bumble bee theme which I'm very, very excited about! Ha!
I hope this update finds all of my blogging friends well :)
Let's see what's new with B. Well, her nine month check up went great! She is weighing in at 17lb7oz which is the 38%ile. She's in the 94%ile for height and she's 29 inches long. She's one tall girl! The crawling started about two days after Christmas. She was getting up on her knees and then just plopping to her stomach and then one day, she just started crawling! Now she's rather fast and get's into whatever she can!
About two weeks after the crawling her first tooth came in. I knew it was coming because she was CRAB-BY! Ha! Pretty much she was not being herself for an entire weekend. I'm afraid that she'll be getting another one in the next day or so because she's kinda acting the same way! Oh, and the amount of drool is crazy!
Miss B is social butterfly for sure. The doctor was surprised to know that she says many words already. She knows and says the regular dada and baba at the right times. She also says: hi, bye, woof-woof-, dance and bug. I have to admit. . . her "dance" sounds like "DAN" and her bug is more "BU." Either way, we know what she's saying.
As the doctor said, this one is a "pistol." Hence crawling repeatedly to something that we've just said "no" to. Our favorite is as you are telling her no, she shakes her head no and then does that thing anyway. Mr. Later Than Most and I laugh at the sight of that each day. It's too cute!
I hate to admit that I've already ordered Brooklyn's birthday party invitations. Can you believe it? We are all set and booked to have her party at Gymboree Play and Music. I'm excited that I found a place. Our house is way too small so I'm so glad to go somewhere. It looks like we are doing a bumble bee theme which I'm very, very excited about! Ha!
I hope this update finds all of my blogging friends well :)
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