Yes I totally just tricked you by my title. You see, I haven't posted in a while and I still want you to keep coming back. I know I've been bad and have not updated!
So the baby #2 is not because I have performed a infertility miracle and got pregnant by magic, it's because I did pay for our frozen babies to stay frozen for another year! Some days I think we are crazy but we do talk about number two and maybe, just maybe using one frozen embie next summer to see what happens. That would make Miss B and number 2, two years apart. That whole thing can change tomorrow though.
Today Miss Brooklyn is 4 months old! Oh my, I could just cry. She is getting so big. I'm not just saying this because she's mine, but she is SUCH a good baby. She is always in a happy mood, always smiling, and never complaining about anything. We are so lucky!
Miss B had her 4 month appointment today! She weighs 13 pounds and 5 oz which is the 44%ile. Her birth weight was 7 pounds and 5 oz so she has almost doubled. Her height at two months was 23 3/4 inches and now shes 25 inches which is the 79%ile. The doctors said that she is doing great and checks out perfectly. We are so blessed. Now I don't want to mislead you that I have a perfect baby because she does have a tiny bit of cradle cap. Actually, the doctor said she could not see it but could feel the patch on her head in a little spot!
As crazy as it seems, she said I can start Brooklyn on rice cereal! I'm not ready for this madness! A spoon? People, she's 4 months old. Why don't we just rush her off to college for Pete's sake. I don't know if I'm ready for this, but if she is then fine. Tomorrow we are going to S's for a visit and we may try the cereal there. She just started it with her twin girls so she has some experience!
On a sad note, I have to start going to work to set up my classroom next week. Yes, my long break of being a stay at home mom is over. I did enjoy it though. Okay I'm lying. The beginning sucked and I wanted to drive off a cliff. I was so bored, but Brooklyn finally because interactive we are buddies :) Luckily, she'll be two houses down from where I'm working and I can keep my eye on her :)
On the friend front, I still have one friend IRL waiting for her baby. She did an IUI injectable cycle and it failed. I hate it. She's going through that really rough patch where she thinks she'll never be a mom and everything is bound to fail. Many of us have been there. I'm doing my best to keep her motivated and not so down. I know this is going to work for her. Did I mention that I sent her to my RE? I really believe in that guy so I know it'll all work out. I'll keep you posted!
August 8, 2011
July 27, 2011
Tomorrow will be rough
Well, this is what us Bump girls call a post and run, but I needed to get the frick on here for an update already!
I will be back to work very soon, and tomorrow I'm dropping my little Brooklyn off to her babysitter. Actually, it's a nanny but in her own home so wtf do you call that? Anywho- I want to start getting them acclimated and tomorrow I drop her off for three hours. I'm freaking out! I mean, I always wanted to go back to work, but this is going to be much, much harder than I thought. And truly, I couldn't have a better set up for Miss B. This person is awesome, I already know her. B is the only kid she's watching and she lives two houses down from my school. Yet I'm freaking. It's so tough!!! And really, I'm only leaving her for three hours. To make myself feel better I emailed the nannysitter (there we go) and told her all of my concerns. I told her how I watched an episode of Oprah and a mom left her baby in the car on a hot summer day. The mom was in a routine and just forgot her very own baby. I told the nannysitter that I was deathly afraid of doing this myself, and now I have to worry about her too because a baby is not part of her routine. I also told her that babies need to be put on their backs to sleep now, and that they can't have blankets. I told her how B loves to rub her face with her little blankie and that's how I know it's nap time. I also told her how B has gotten scared of things lately, and may pout and cry if she sees something scary. Normally, I can calm her well, hopefully this person can too.
Great, now I'm crying! Son of a bitch! I guess I should go back through my blogs and remember that I was a mess this time last year wondering if my IVF worked. Now, I have different things to worry about and though they may be though, I'd take them in a heartbeat.
I'll let you know how it goes.
I will be back to work very soon, and tomorrow I'm dropping my little Brooklyn off to her babysitter. Actually, it's a nanny but in her own home so wtf do you call that? Anywho- I want to start getting them acclimated and tomorrow I drop her off for three hours. I'm freaking out! I mean, I always wanted to go back to work, but this is going to be much, much harder than I thought. And truly, I couldn't have a better set up for Miss B. This person is awesome, I already know her. B is the only kid she's watching and she lives two houses down from my school. Yet I'm freaking. It's so tough!!! And really, I'm only leaving her for three hours. To make myself feel better I emailed the nannysitter (there we go) and told her all of my concerns. I told her how I watched an episode of Oprah and a mom left her baby in the car on a hot summer day. The mom was in a routine and just forgot her very own baby. I told the nannysitter that I was deathly afraid of doing this myself, and now I have to worry about her too because a baby is not part of her routine. I also told her that babies need to be put on their backs to sleep now, and that they can't have blankets. I told her how B loves to rub her face with her little blankie and that's how I know it's nap time. I also told her how B has gotten scared of things lately, and may pout and cry if she sees something scary. Normally, I can calm her well, hopefully this person can too.
Great, now I'm crying! Son of a bitch! I guess I should go back through my blogs and remember that I was a mess this time last year wondering if my IVF worked. Now, I have different things to worry about and though they may be though, I'd take them in a heartbeat.
I'll let you know how it goes.
July 20, 2011
Three Months
Well, I'm late, but Miss Brooklyn is three months old. Where the frick did that time go? This must be what everyone talks about when they say, "enjoy it while you can." We've really been enjoying it, that's why I haven't posted in so long!
B and I are spending a ton of time with S and the girls. It's just too fun! Yesterday I had all three of them lined up on the rug and I was talking to them. They were each making noises back to me and just staring at me. It was the cutest thing. I think Brooklyn knows she has friends. She just stares at each one of them when they play together. I love it! S and I can't wait until they can really interact. OMG- the other day they were all sucking on each other's hands. Miss B was sucking on M's hand and M was sucking on N's hand. It was sooooo funny. We should've taken a pic, but we almost peed our pants watching them. You'd think they have no toys.
Speaking of toys, I'm out of control. Amazon and I are way too good of friends. I'm always ordering stuff for B. Okay, I haven't ordered in like a week so I guess it's not really "always." But the stuff I buy, she just loves! How can you not? And, I don't want to go there on the clothes. Okay, but in my defense, I buy a lot of B's clothes used. So it's not like I'm paying full price. We have a chain of kids' stores that sell used clothing and they have great stuff. Actually, a lot of the stuff I buy still has the tags! That's why Mr. Later Than Most doesn't say too much. I think it's apparent that my Coach diaper bag was probably the last nice thing I will buy for myself. :)
On a more insane note, my friend had a little baby boy the other day. I didn't even see him in person, just a picture and now I want a boy. Son of a bitch! How does that happen? I swear, FaceBook is to blame for a lot of stuff.
B and I are spending a ton of time with S and the girls. It's just too fun! Yesterday I had all three of them lined up on the rug and I was talking to them. They were each making noises back to me and just staring at me. It was the cutest thing. I think Brooklyn knows she has friends. She just stares at each one of them when they play together. I love it! S and I can't wait until they can really interact. OMG- the other day they were all sucking on each other's hands. Miss B was sucking on M's hand and M was sucking on N's hand. It was sooooo funny. We should've taken a pic, but we almost peed our pants watching them. You'd think they have no toys.
Speaking of toys, I'm out of control. Amazon and I are way too good of friends. I'm always ordering stuff for B. Okay, I haven't ordered in like a week so I guess it's not really "always." But the stuff I buy, she just loves! How can you not? And, I don't want to go there on the clothes. Okay, but in my defense, I buy a lot of B's clothes used. So it's not like I'm paying full price. We have a chain of kids' stores that sell used clothing and they have great stuff. Actually, a lot of the stuff I buy still has the tags! That's why Mr. Later Than Most doesn't say too much. I think it's apparent that my Coach diaper bag was probably the last nice thing I will buy for myself. :)
On a more insane note, my friend had a little baby boy the other day. I didn't even see him in person, just a picture and now I want a boy. Son of a bitch! How does that happen? I swear, FaceBook is to blame for a lot of stuff.
July 5, 2011
It's Been a Year
Before I begin, Brooklyn has found her "voice." She is behind me screaming for just pure fun, joy, and basically to hear herself. She's kinda like her momma. :)
If you go back through my blog you'll realize that it's exactly one year ago that I started my IVF cycle. At that time I thought the end of the world was near. A lot of "why me's" took place. Why can't I have a baby the "normal" way? Why do I have to do these injections? Why is it a possibility that this whole thing can blow-up in our faces? If you are a regular follower, you remember my blog about smuggling. Mr. Later Than Most and I never told anyone about our struggles, but we had a family get together planned for the 4th of July. I wanted to tell Mr. Later Than Mosts mom so she could help us out a little, but he disagreed. So, we planned to get all of our IVF crap together and smuggle it to the family gathering.
What I remember most is how Mr. Later Than Most and I were both like deer in headlights when we were packing. Of course we went to our injection class and I (once again) had done way too much studying and the drugs and what we should do. In fact, Mr. Later Than Most took extensive notes at our class and I was glad because the nurse truly talked a mile a minute. So, there we were with a crapload of needles, pills, and liquids and no clue what we were supposed to take with us. If you are bored, I advise you to go back and read some of those blogs. They are kinda funny.
So, Mr. LTM and I were at the same gathering this weekend. As we were driving somewhere I said, "It was one year ago that we started doing those injections." He says, "No way." The year went by fast. I can't believe it!
Brooklyn will be three months old on Friday. She is such a doll. She's a good, good little baby. Kinda spoiled already but I'm trying not to do that! As I've said before, I'm finally all adjusted now. We are really enjoying our time together before I have to go back to work.
On my last post I said that most of my internet girls are finally pregnant but I have two girls IRL that were struggling. Well, I got great news that friend #2 had a successful IVF and she is about 13 weeks along! Friend #1 is starting an injectable IUI cycle this week. They've been trying for over 2 years, so hopefully good news soon!
If you go back through my blog you'll realize that it's exactly one year ago that I started my IVF cycle. At that time I thought the end of the world was near. A lot of "why me's" took place. Why can't I have a baby the "normal" way? Why do I have to do these injections? Why is it a possibility that this whole thing can blow-up in our faces? If you are a regular follower, you remember my blog about smuggling. Mr. Later Than Most and I never told anyone about our struggles, but we had a family get together planned for the 4th of July. I wanted to tell Mr. Later Than Mosts mom so she could help us out a little, but he disagreed. So, we planned to get all of our IVF crap together and smuggle it to the family gathering.
What I remember most is how Mr. Later Than Most and I were both like deer in headlights when we were packing. Of course we went to our injection class and I (once again) had done way too much studying and the drugs and what we should do. In fact, Mr. Later Than Most took extensive notes at our class and I was glad because the nurse truly talked a mile a minute. So, there we were with a crapload of needles, pills, and liquids and no clue what we were supposed to take with us. If you are bored, I advise you to go back and read some of those blogs. They are kinda funny.
So, Mr. LTM and I were at the same gathering this weekend. As we were driving somewhere I said, "It was one year ago that we started doing those injections." He says, "No way." The year went by fast. I can't believe it!
Brooklyn will be three months old on Friday. She is such a doll. She's a good, good little baby. Kinda spoiled already but I'm trying not to do that! As I've said before, I'm finally all adjusted now. We are really enjoying our time together before I have to go back to work.
On my last post I said that most of my internet girls are finally pregnant but I have two girls IRL that were struggling. Well, I got great news that friend #2 had a successful IVF and she is about 13 weeks along! Friend #1 is starting an injectable IUI cycle this week. They've been trying for over 2 years, so hopefully good news soon!
June 25, 2011
I'm an Old Pro
I can't believe I went this long without posting. Time is just flying by and I've been keeping busy. S and I have been spending several days a week together. I pack up Brooklyn and head over to her house. She's got all kinds of fun baby stuff, considering she has twins. We have a fun time just chatting and taking care of our girls. When I can, I try to lend her a hand so she can just carry one baby around the house. Sometimes if B is sleeping, I can help her feed one of her girls. The only problem is that we spend a lot of time on Amazon ordering things for our girls. We tell the girls we are "playing secretary." S made that up and I think it's just plain hilarious!
I also have another friend who has a 4 week old. I've seen her about once a week so far and we just hang out at her place or mine. I show her the ropes of what I know and she just loves my advice. The other day I made her swaddle her little girl and now that baby is sleeping much better :) I'm an old pro.
I'm also an old pro at taking care of my own baby. I've gotten over the hump, I think. I can't really explain it but more like you go through an adjustment period and now I feel like I'm done adjusting. In a good way though! Hahahaha. Actually, tonight I type from my couch as B is fast asleep and Mr. Later Than Most is in Wisconsin at a concert. He'll be back in the morning. Yes, I just said in the morning. They were going to have drinks and well, we all know it's a very bad idea to then drive, so they are sleeping up there. I don't think I was exactly ready to spend the night alone, but I can do it. When I doubted myself I thought of my poor girlfriend whose husband left her. She's 30 weeks pregnant and he decided the married life wasn't for him. He left about 10 weeks ago. So, as I sit here doing it on my own, I think of how she's going to do it on her own every day and it doesn't seem so bad.
So, I had decided to store those two embryos we have. The only thing is that we've just gotten $400 in doctor bills for Brooklyn, so now I need $900 instead of $500. I have the money, that's not the problem. The problem is I just keep thinking, "Do we need them?" It's another mind game that I guess is part of the whole infertility fun. My plan is to store them for the year, and next year I'll make a better decision. Sometimes I look at B and think there is no way I'm having another. She is such a GOOD baby. She's always happy and is literally sleeping 10 hours a night. I hate to even type that for a fear of jinxing it. On the other hand, I looked at videos of her as a tiny baby and just love that little baby. I can't imagine never getting to see a little baby like that again. She was so freaking cute with her little bobble head. Actually, she's still kind of a bobble head but now she's really long :)
Of all of my infertile friends, most of them are finally pregnant. All of them with the help of modern science, but they are there. Christina's little girl is due in August. You remember her. . . she was on TLC's Conception Story which I talked about way early on. Heather, my BFF from TWW just found out she's having a girl. She's due in December. Of course, there are many others that I've met along the way that have recently had babies as well. I do have two friends IRL though that are struggling and I think of them all the time. One is about to start IUI with injectables and the other is about to begin IVF #3. Hopefully those girls can get some good news someday here soon.
Thanks for reading!
I also have another friend who has a 4 week old. I've seen her about once a week so far and we just hang out at her place or mine. I show her the ropes of what I know and she just loves my advice. The other day I made her swaddle her little girl and now that baby is sleeping much better :) I'm an old pro.
I'm also an old pro at taking care of my own baby. I've gotten over the hump, I think. I can't really explain it but more like you go through an adjustment period and now I feel like I'm done adjusting. In a good way though! Hahahaha. Actually, tonight I type from my couch as B is fast asleep and Mr. Later Than Most is in Wisconsin at a concert. He'll be back in the morning. Yes, I just said in the morning. They were going to have drinks and well, we all know it's a very bad idea to then drive, so they are sleeping up there. I don't think I was exactly ready to spend the night alone, but I can do it. When I doubted myself I thought of my poor girlfriend whose husband left her. She's 30 weeks pregnant and he decided the married life wasn't for him. He left about 10 weeks ago. So, as I sit here doing it on my own, I think of how she's going to do it on her own every day and it doesn't seem so bad.
So, I had decided to store those two embryos we have. The only thing is that we've just gotten $400 in doctor bills for Brooklyn, so now I need $900 instead of $500. I have the money, that's not the problem. The problem is I just keep thinking, "Do we need them?" It's another mind game that I guess is part of the whole infertility fun. My plan is to store them for the year, and next year I'll make a better decision. Sometimes I look at B and think there is no way I'm having another. She is such a GOOD baby. She's always happy and is literally sleeping 10 hours a night. I hate to even type that for a fear of jinxing it. On the other hand, I looked at videos of her as a tiny baby and just love that little baby. I can't imagine never getting to see a little baby like that again. She was so freaking cute with her little bobble head. Actually, she's still kind of a bobble head but now she's really long :)
Of all of my infertile friends, most of them are finally pregnant. All of them with the help of modern science, but they are there. Christina's little girl is due in August. You remember her. . . she was on TLC's Conception Story which I talked about way early on. Heather, my BFF from TWW just found out she's having a girl. She's due in December. Of course, there are many others that I've met along the way that have recently had babies as well. I do have two friends IRL though that are struggling and I think of them all the time. One is about to start IUI with injectables and the other is about to begin IVF #3. Hopefully those girls can get some good news someday here soon.
Thanks for reading!
June 11, 2011
2 Month Appointment, Check!
Brooklyn's two month appointment went well. She's getting so big. She is in the 90%ile for height and was 23 3/4 inches at her appointment. She was 20 1/2 at birth, so she is really doing some growing! She weighed 10lb 12 oz and that put her in the 50%ile for weight. She checked-out well and even smiled the doctors and nurses several times. You'd think they get sick of that sort of thing, but they went goo goo gah-gah over it. I wish they'd quite telling us how cute she is though, it's starting to go to Mr. Later Than Most's head.
Shot time was a little more rough. She had two in one leg and one in the other. Two nurses came in to give Brooklyn her shots and they did them at the same time. Brooklyn got all red and screamed for about thirty seconds. She calmed right away when we gave her bottle and there may have been a faint promise of a pony. That was obviously a rookie mistake. Good thing she can't talk to remind us of that moment.
I did ask them about her male pattern baldness and if they thought she would ever get hair. Of course I know she will but I had to crack a couple of jokes. Don't worry, I made sure the doctor had plenty of hair before making that comment.
So, after her shots, Brooklyn has been sleeping a ton. I'm talking three hour naps for the girl who never naps. For instance, right now she's been sleeping for two hours. I have my coat and shoes on to head out, but she's fast asleep in her crib.
One thing I noticed that is Brooklyn has become a bit of a chatterbox. She is constantly babbling about something. I'm worried she'll turn out to be like me. It seems that may be the first indication. Maybe when she starts typing I'll give her a blog. Oh, yes I put her on the computer already. One day I took a picture of her on my FaceBook homepage and posted it to my profile. I titled it "Checking the Book." She was about 4 weeks old. Ha!
My research has not turned to figuring out how to get this kid baptised or christened when Mr. Later Than Most and I are not church goers. Not that we don't want to be, we just haven't gotten around to it. When we got married we got married outside on a golf course and had one of those officiants that you just pay for. Believe it or not, they do the same things for babies. So, I either need to look into that route or find a church that we will start going to. That's my next quest!
Shot time was a little more rough. She had two in one leg and one in the other. Two nurses came in to give Brooklyn her shots and they did them at the same time. Brooklyn got all red and screamed for about thirty seconds. She calmed right away when we gave her bottle and there may have been a faint promise of a pony. That was obviously a rookie mistake. Good thing she can't talk to remind us of that moment.
I did ask them about her male pattern baldness and if they thought she would ever get hair. Of course I know she will but I had to crack a couple of jokes. Don't worry, I made sure the doctor had plenty of hair before making that comment.
So, after her shots, Brooklyn has been sleeping a ton. I'm talking three hour naps for the girl who never naps. For instance, right now she's been sleeping for two hours. I have my coat and shoes on to head out, but she's fast asleep in her crib.
One thing I noticed that is Brooklyn has become a bit of a chatterbox. She is constantly babbling about something. I'm worried she'll turn out to be like me. It seems that may be the first indication. Maybe when she starts typing I'll give her a blog. Oh, yes I put her on the computer already. One day I took a picture of her on my FaceBook homepage and posted it to my profile. I titled it "Checking the Book." She was about 4 weeks old. Ha!
My research has not turned to figuring out how to get this kid baptised or christened when Mr. Later Than Most and I are not church goers. Not that we don't want to be, we just haven't gotten around to it. When we got married we got married outside on a golf course and had one of those officiants that you just pay for. Believe it or not, they do the same things for babies. So, I either need to look into that route or find a church that we will start going to. That's my next quest!
June 8, 2011
Shots Today
Ohhhh, that message brings back memories of all of those injections I did last year. It's almost been one year since my IVF cycle. Those shots never bothered me. The first one sucked, but after that it was really smooth sailing. I remember Mr. Later Than Most's inspiring words on injection day two. . . "Someday you'll tell your kid what you did to get him/her." Well, it did make me laugh at the time, but as most of you know, people still don't know about our infertility. I have about two friends in real life who know, other than that, not even family.
So back to my title. . . Shots Today. Well, Brooklyn is two months old. TWO MONTHS. Holy crap. That means I've been in survival mode for two months. Hahahaha. I can't believe how big she is getting. Today when she woke up she was talking and talking. Yesterday I told Heather that I was stuck inside (due to the heat) with "Miss Chatterbox." Of course they aren't real words, but she certainly thinks they are! This afternoon we'll go for her two month shots. Ugh! So not looking forward. I do have Mr. Later Than Most meeting me there. Yes, he can hold her during the shots and then when she cries, he can pass her to me. Then she'll think I'm the good one! Hehehehehe.
Okay, I may have said this before but I'm just going to put it out there again. I hate staying home. Yup, I know I'm totally weird. I'm very glad that Mr. Later Than Most doesn't want me to be a stay at home mom, because I have no idea what I would do. I remember everyone telling me, "You wait until that baby is born. You'll wish you were staying home." Um, no. Don't get me wrong, I love Brookie to death, but holy smokes these are the longest days of my life! I truly think it's her age. I bet at this time next year I'll wish I was on the long leave that I'm on right now. I dunno. But, I'm sure there is some girl reading this right now who feels the same way as me. Now, both of us know that we are not psychos.
Well, looks like I'll owe an update and let you know how the appointment goes. I'm trying to figure out if I have any questions for our doctor and I don't! Wow! There's a first!
So back to my title. . . Shots Today. Well, Brooklyn is two months old. TWO MONTHS. Holy crap. That means I've been in survival mode for two months. Hahahaha. I can't believe how big she is getting. Today when she woke up she was talking and talking. Yesterday I told Heather that I was stuck inside (due to the heat) with "Miss Chatterbox." Of course they aren't real words, but she certainly thinks they are! This afternoon we'll go for her two month shots. Ugh! So not looking forward. I do have Mr. Later Than Most meeting me there. Yes, he can hold her during the shots and then when she cries, he can pass her to me. Then she'll think I'm the good one! Hehehehehe.
Okay, I may have said this before but I'm just going to put it out there again. I hate staying home. Yup, I know I'm totally weird. I'm very glad that Mr. Later Than Most doesn't want me to be a stay at home mom, because I have no idea what I would do. I remember everyone telling me, "You wait until that baby is born. You'll wish you were staying home." Um, no. Don't get me wrong, I love Brookie to death, but holy smokes these are the longest days of my life! I truly think it's her age. I bet at this time next year I'll wish I was on the long leave that I'm on right now. I dunno. But, I'm sure there is some girl reading this right now who feels the same way as me. Now, both of us know that we are not psychos.
Well, looks like I'll owe an update and let you know how the appointment goes. I'm trying to figure out if I have any questions for our doctor and I don't! Wow! There's a first!
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