Well, this is what us Bump girls call a post and run, but I needed to get the frick on here for an update already!
I will be back to work very soon, and tomorrow I'm dropping my little Brooklyn off to her babysitter. Actually, it's a nanny but in her own home so wtf do you call that? Anywho- I want to start getting them acclimated and tomorrow I drop her off for three hours. I'm freaking out! I mean, I always wanted to go back to work, but this is going to be much, much harder than I thought. And truly, I couldn't have a better set up for Miss B. This person is awesome, I already know her. B is the only kid she's watching and she lives two houses down from my school. Yet I'm freaking. It's so tough!!! And really, I'm only leaving her for three hours. To make myself feel better I emailed the nannysitter (there we go) and told her all of my concerns. I told her how I watched an episode of Oprah and a mom left her baby in the car on a hot summer day. The mom was in a routine and just forgot her very own baby. I told the nannysitter that I was deathly afraid of doing this myself, and now I have to worry about her too because a baby is not part of her routine. I also told her that babies need to be put on their backs to sleep now, and that they can't have blankets. I told her how B loves to rub her face with her little blankie and that's how I know it's nap time. I also told her how B has gotten scared of things lately, and may pout and cry if she sees something scary. Normally, I can calm her well, hopefully this person can too.
Great, now I'm crying! Son of a bitch! I guess I should go back through my blogs and remember that I was a mess this time last year wondering if my IVF worked. Now, I have different things to worry about and though they may be though, I'd take them in a heartbeat.
I'll let you know how it goes.