I'm an Old Pro

I can't believe I went this long without posting. Time is just flying by and I've been keeping busy. S and I have been spending several days a week together. I pack up Brooklyn and head over to her house. She's got all kinds of fun baby stuff, considering she has twins. We have a fun time just chatting and taking care of our girls. When I can, I try to lend her a hand so she can just carry one baby around the house. Sometimes if B is sleeping, I can help her feed one of her girls. The only problem is that we spend a lot of time on Amazon ordering things for our girls. We tell the girls we are "playing secretary." S made that up and I think it's just plain hilarious!

I also have another friend who has a 4 week old. I've seen her about once a week so far and we just hang out at her place or mine. I show her the ropes of what I know and she just loves my advice. The other day I made her swaddle her little girl and now that baby is sleeping much better :) I'm an old pro.

I'm also an old pro at taking care of my own baby. I've gotten over the hump, I think. I can't really explain it but more like you go through an adjustment period and now I feel like I'm done adjusting. In a good way though! Hahahaha. Actually, tonight I type from my couch as B is fast asleep and Mr. Later Than Most is in Wisconsin at a concert. He'll be back in the morning. Yes, I just said in the morning. They were going to have drinks and well, we all know it's a very bad idea to then drive, so they are sleeping up there. I don't think I was exactly ready to spend the night alone, but I can do it. When I doubted myself I thought of my poor girlfriend whose husband left her. She's 30 weeks pregnant and he decided the married life wasn't for him. He left about 10 weeks ago. So, as I sit here doing it on my own, I think of how she's going to do it on her own every day and it doesn't seem so bad.

So, I had decided to store those two embryos we have. The only thing is that we've just gotten $400 in doctor bills for Brooklyn, so now I need $900 instead of $500. I have the money, that's not the problem. The problem is I just keep thinking, "Do we need them?" It's another mind game that I guess is part of the whole infertility fun. My plan is to store them for the year, and next year I'll make a better decision. Sometimes I look at B and think there is no way I'm having another. She is such a GOOD baby. She's always happy and is literally sleeping 10 hours a night. I hate to even type that for a fear of jinxing it. On the other hand, I looked at videos of her as a tiny baby and just love that little baby. I can't imagine never getting to see a little baby like that again. She was so freaking cute with her little bobble head. Actually, she's still kind of a bobble head but now she's really long :)

Of all of my infertile friends, most of them are finally pregnant. All of them with the help of modern science, but they are there. Christina's little girl is due in August. You remember her. . . she was on TLC's Conception Story which I talked about way early on. Heather, my BFF from TWW just found out she's having a girl. She's due in December. Of course, there are many others that I've met along the way that have recently had babies as well. I do have two friends IRL though that are struggling and I think of them all the time. One is about to start IUI with injectables and the other is about to begin IVF #3. Hopefully those girls can get some good news someday here soon.

Thanks for reading!

2 Month Appointment, Check!

Brooklyn's two month appointment went well. She's getting so big. She is in the 90%ile for height and was 23 3/4 inches at her appointment. She was 20 1/2 at birth, so she is really doing some growing! She weighed 10lb 12 oz and that put her in the 50%ile for weight. She checked-out well and even smiled the doctors and nurses several times. You'd think they get sick of that sort of thing, but they went goo goo gah-gah over it. I wish they'd quite telling us how cute she is though, it's starting to go to Mr. Later Than Most's head.

Shot time was a little more rough. She had two in one leg and one in the other. Two nurses came in to give Brooklyn her shots and they did them at the same time. Brooklyn got all red and screamed for about thirty seconds. She calmed right away when we gave her bottle and there may have been a faint promise of a pony. That was obviously a rookie mistake. Good thing she can't talk to remind us of that moment.

I did ask them about her male pattern baldness and if they thought she would ever get hair. Of course I know she will but I had to crack a couple of jokes. Don't worry, I made sure the doctor had plenty of hair before making that comment.

So, after her shots, Brooklyn has been sleeping a ton. I'm talking three hour naps for the girl who never naps. For instance, right now she's been sleeping for two hours. I have my coat and shoes on to head out, but she's fast asleep in her crib.

One thing I noticed that is Brooklyn has become a bit of a chatterbox. She is constantly babbling about something. I'm worried she'll turn out to be like me. It seems that may be the first indication. Maybe when she starts typing I'll give her a blog. Oh, yes I put her on the computer already. One day I took a picture of her on my FaceBook homepage and posted it to my profile. I titled it "Checking the Book." She was about 4 weeks old. Ha!

My research has not turned to figuring out how to get this kid baptised or christened when Mr. Later Than Most and I are not church goers. Not that we don't want to be, we just haven't gotten around to it. When we got married we got married outside on a golf course and had one of those officiants that you just pay for. Believe it or not, they do the same things for babies. So, I either need to look into that route or find a church that we will start going to. That's my next quest!

Shots Today

Ohhhh, that message brings back memories of all of those injections I did last year. It's almost been one year since my IVF cycle. Those shots never bothered me. The first one sucked, but after that it was really smooth sailing. I remember Mr. Later Than Most's inspiring words on injection day two. . . "Someday you'll tell your kid what you did to get him/her." Well, it did make me laugh at the time, but as most of you know, people still don't know about our infertility. I have about two friends in real life who know, other than that, not even family.

So back to my title. . . Shots Today. Well, Brooklyn is two months old. TWO MONTHS. Holy crap. That means I've been in survival mode for two months. Hahahaha. I can't believe how big she is getting. Today when she woke up she was talking and talking. Yesterday I told Heather that I was stuck inside (due to the heat) with "Miss Chatterbox." Of course they aren't real words, but she certainly thinks they are! This afternoon we'll go for her two month shots. Ugh! So not looking forward. I do have Mr. Later Than Most meeting me there. Yes, he can hold her during the shots and then when she cries, he can pass her to me. Then she'll think I'm the good one! Hehehehehe.

Okay, I may have said this before but I'm just going to put it out there again. I hate staying home. Yup, I know I'm totally weird. I'm very glad that Mr. Later Than Most doesn't want me to be a stay at home mom, because I have no idea what I would do. I remember everyone telling me, "You wait until that baby is born. You'll wish you were staying home." Um, no. Don't get me wrong, I love Brookie to death, but holy smokes these are the longest days of my life! I truly think it's her age. I bet at this time next year I'll wish I was on the long leave that I'm on right now. I dunno. But, I'm sure there is some girl reading this right now who feels the same way as me. Now, both of us know that we are not psychos.

Well, looks like I'll owe an update and let you know how the appointment goes. I'm trying to figure out if I have any questions for our doctor and I don't! Wow! There's a first!

This is Weird

So, I've been thinking about the two frozen embryos we have. I have not talked to Mr. Later Than Most yet. We've had too much going on and he gets stressed very easily. We recently got a new car that we really needed. Now we are trying to organize getting a new roof on our house. I'm also switching our home and car insurance. We just refinanced our house. Mr. LTM had a friend pass away last week (very sad). As you can see, it hasn't been exactly the right time. We have about three weeks to decide what to do with them. One option is to move them to long term storage. That will be $500. If we keep them at the RE, it's $1,000. Both of those amounts are for a year. We can use the embryos and then commit ourselves to a loony bin. Finally, we can discard them.

So here is what's weird. Those embryos are Brooklyn's twin. The eggs developed at the same time and were fertilized at the same time. So really, twins. Now, of course they aren't "real" twins, but that's what I keep thinking about. The shitty thing is that before all of this, we did not see the embryos as real people. I'm sure that's a hot topic and some of you would like to tell me off. But really, we didn't see it that way and now it's a little different. The crazy thing is that you have to make this decision when your kid is only 8 weeks old and truly, you feel like you never want another kid again. Hahahaha!

$500 isn't all that much, but we've had so many money stealing things lately, that $500 kinda sucks. My plan is to bring it up to Mr. Later Than Most and try to get him to do long term storage for a year. In a year, we can make a rational decision. Now, when in the heck am I going to bring it up?